This is where I will go to speak the unspoken.
All these words I cant bring myself to say out loud

I'll lay them to rest here.




This is your last chance to stop. I cant take back what comes next.

 

. T R I G G E R . W A R N I N G .

The thoughts and words contained in this blog are intended for mature audiences only. It is raw and honest; a livewire and organic portrait with layers of depression and (hopefully) healing. This space will showcase the navigation through some of the more difficult parts of life that many may find troublesome to speak or read about. It will put on display a wide range of emotions very likely influenced by the day-to-day of an average, flawed life. Please only read on if you feel you can handle it. Do what is best for your own head space first, foremost, and always. 

~Unspoken

"There are two sides to every coin." And while that isn't wrong, it isn't right either. Maybe that's why my mind is the way it is. Because it isn't wrong, but it isn't quite right. Sure, there is heads, and there's tails but what about the little wall that builds up the side? Sometimes its smooth but more often than not a coin's side is made up of ridges and bumps. And it is in that space where I reside. The forgotten side that no one thinks about, hidden away in the solitude of the uneven surface. I will sit here like a coward with my secrets and my half-truths, afraid to lay claim to one or the other because of what it might mean in the end...

I just want the answer to be easy to find. Just once.

To simply exist apparently wasn't enough, no. I had to be tested and put through trial after trial too? When will push come to shove and things finally be at that point where I've endured enough, and I catch even a single break? I fooled myself into thinking I'd finally gotten my hands on a blessing, only to find that it was just another curse in a mask. And in the process of navigating all... making choices based on what I thought was real... I've now set myself up for a failure so big that it will surely be the end of me. Some things you just can't take back... Some things will guarantee your ruin. Intentional choices with unintentional consequences. It's the story of my fucking life... and now I get to lose it all... All over again.

Someone spun the coin again.

What side is it going to land on?

~Always~
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